"I will rejoice in doing them good"

I'm going to warn you that this is a pretty honest post.

Life is feeling very much like everything has got a bit much. My degree is great, but difficult and a lot of work and I massively struggle with self motivation. Hall group is feeling like a massive responsibility- a very scary one! Some stuff personally isn't going great- taking up a lot of my thoughts and difficult to see past. Not to mention the fact that I'm a massive idiot sometimes.

Yet I genuinely believe that God is working massively in my life. I have never been so aware of my faults and my failures- you would think that this would be making everything worse but it's so encouraging that I am such a sinful person and yet I am loved by the Almighty God more than I can ever hope to understand. I'm encouraged by the fact that He "sees the depths of my heart and He loves me the same"! What a Saviour! I've been struck time and time again by the privileged position I am in as a child of the living God! I am a joint heir with Jesus Christ! The God who flung the stars into space, who knows all of eternity, the God who has power over everything- I can call him my Father.

And the more I see my own sin- my anger, my jealousy, my pride, my stubborness, my sinful thoughts, my idolatry, my selfishness (I could go on!)- the more I can see how great God's grace is. My sin is deep- His grace is deeper still!

I've been convicted of turning away from my Father. I take the salvation offered to me and reject the relationship that is so great! I've been convicted of continually thinking of myself and how others think of me rather than turning to my Father. I've been convicted of not living my life to glorify Him.

I saw my service to God as a duty and a chore. I haven't been servant-hearted, I haven't been a cheerful giver, I haven't served God because I love him and because I am so caught up in His love and his grace that it can't help but overflow from me.

Yet God still chooses to use me.

And I don't think I've ever been so excited by that. Today thousands of people heard the gospel in a football stadium in Exeter. It was such a joy to be a part of that. And I know that my God can do so much more than I could ever imagine. So I'm praying for revival in Exeter. I'm excited for mission week in January. I'm resolving to pray for mission week, to pray for the lost in Exeter, to pray that God's Kingdom would be being added to from Exeter in the coming weeks and months.

God is so good to me. 

"They will be my people and I will be their God... I will make an e v e r l a s t i n g covenant with them. I will never stop doing good to them... I will rejoice in doing them good." Jeremiah 32:38,40,41

life goes on.

oh hey.
so it's been a while!! apologies for no posts since whenever.... May?! sorry. I have had a pretty rubbish week as weeks go. but feeling blessed by great friends and amazing family and loved and comforted by an everlasting Father who loves me more than I could ever understand.

""For the mountains may depart and the hills be removed, but my steadfast love shall not depart from you, and my covenant of peace shall not be removed," says the Lord, who has compassion on you."

I have a heavenly Father who will never let me go- nothing I can do or say will make Him love me less.

And though sometimes it feels like life is never going to be the same again and that it'll never get better- I know it will! (However long it may take!)

I literally have some of the best friends ever. My family are amazing. And most of all, I have a Father who loves me enough that he would create a rescue plan in the depths of eternity in which he would send His Son to die for me.

So in a week where everything has gone wrong, where everything seems to have been turned upside down and I don't know what to do... I still have so much to be thankful for. :)

Over and out.

Flowers, picnics and Joshua!

it's been a while.

sorry.



my room is beautifully tidy and i have a bunch of tulips from a lovely boyfriend. which makes me happy.

so on sunday, my church here in Exeter had a church picnic and it was great. the sun was shining (as it always does in Devon...) and we had a really good game of football :) I haven't played football in a LONG TIME. but I enjoyed it immensely. there was a play park as well which was great.

we're studying Joshua in hall group and SLOBS and it is awesome. Today we studied Joshua 3 which is such a great chapter and our God is so great. It was good to be reminded of that.

Also, apparently I posted a verse from this song last time I posted but this one line has been in my head lots today:

'You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same'

I think that's pretty amazing.





Over and out for now.

pancakes.

this blogpost exists for two reasons.
1. i was rebuked for not posting recently enough for the likings of some people.
2. the wok i spoke so highly of last term has failed me and i feel the need to share my grief.

i have been a busy busy bee. yesterday, i had a discussion with some st thomas baptist church students about how it is that bees make honey. we concluded that they do not have udders. this was all we concluded.

my wok is no longer non-stick :( everything sticks. it is sad, sad times.

i like pancakes. i've become a pancake-aholic, if there is such a thing. i think i'll have some tomorrow. i like crepe type pancakes, and drop scone type pancakes.

this is not the wisest blog entry i've ever made. but these are things that i have been considering.

anyway, this is all for now, as my flat are all out, and i wish to make the most of the fact that i have rowancroft court block E to myself to play my guitar.

lots of love.
over and out x

ps. a lovely friend of mine has jumped on the blog-bandwagon like the rest of us. her blog is already worth a look- www.christourcornerstone.blogspot.com

"Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky and you know them by name.
You are amazing God.
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God."